I made it.

It finally came. It finally came!!!!

After a year and a half of confounding reality bouncing in my head

I realized just the opposite. It isn't reality.

I feel like I can make my life stable again - this will all work out.

The best part is this thought process isn't accompanied by euphoria

(It means I'm not just having a manic "breakthrough" that doesn't really exist)



I realized I dream while awake.

Haha, sounds alot more extreme than it is...

It's just my brain uses a part during the day that it shouldn't.



It's a long, Long explanation, but its connections are endless,

along with the implications.



I feel good, and probably will keep posting here -

Had no Idea people commented anything on here either

Thanks for reading.

Hmm, not very expressive mood today

Well, I feel down. A bit tired, and a little bewildered. Had a bad night last night.
Now I don't feel so great, but not really bad - just that worn out feeling. sigh.
I wonder.
I don't know what I wonder.
I've been trying to see good things, it was hard.
I did see some.
But I can't remember... they were proof.
THOSE WERE THE PROOF!
Why didn't I write them down??!
Fuckin rarrrrrrrrrrrrrrr urgh yeah
alright now i feel good haha
awesomme peace

Some things...

Some things are not suppose to be known.
As our brains become more and more complex, for who knows what reason, we are going to realize more and more of those ideas we really can do without.
I was thinking about the "closed eye hallucinations", and I realized, I'm probably better off not knowing how I think.
It's probably a happier world if I don't analyze things so much...
But I say I'd be happier if I quit / started alot of things, and I never notice a huge difference.
I think it's just who I am
But I shouldn't think about it.
Fucking die circular logic! DIE!
Sigh... when my waves even out? Wheres the calm after the storm?